disclaimer: this poem is very cringe. read at your own risk<3
one second i am really in love with you
the very next second you are blocked
and now you’re tired of me
i can tell you have moved on.
obviously, i am still in love with you
and now every night i wish
i never even met you or
that you did not exist.
because now i am broken
and you are broken too
i did not even meant it
i don’t want to hurt you.
but now you won’t take my shit anymore,
no matter how big i open up my door.
because you have got a life,
you have got places to be and things to do
but i am still right here
and i don’t know how to tell you that i miss you.
i hope you know i am happy for you
you’ve gotten so much more pretty
i can see you are glowing and doing
completely fine without me.
now that you are surrounded by your true friends
ones that don’t go around lying to your face
but believe me when i say i was scared,
that you might never really care.
(and i was right)
i was only trying to protect myself,
i did not want to get my heart broken again
and accidentally i played you the same way
but i do wish i could undo all that – even today.
i wish i was never friends with you
because, honestly, i never wanted to
but the way you came into my life
looked like something i have never seen before.
i made you feel loved and wiped your tears
& when i felt trash you only pretended you cared
i always stood up for you
only to learn that you never did.
little did i know that you were nothing but trouble
all you ever gave me was insecurity
i even tried to change myself
so that you would like me.
but honestly i am happy that it happened
’cause i was really trying to love someone else
when i could not even love myself,
at least i have learned that.
all along i was trying so hard
to be like the people you liked,
i never noticed that i did not like you
and at least i have learned that.